Insomnia, when she comes to visit, can be
disrupting and yet productive, actually. I have a love/hate relationship with Insomnia.
I don’t quite think of her as a friend, yet she and I have been on intimate
terms lately. On the one hand I dislike her intensely because I’m afraid she
will ruin the day to come. However, if I get up and write, even if I feel like
you know what, she isn’t such bad company and I often come away with, if not a peppy
feeling of accomplishment, at least I feel I haven’t wasted my early morning
with her or bemoan the coming day.
If I’ve already spent three or four hours
writing before the sun has risen I can justify a nap in the afternoon, if I even need one. Lately I’ve found
myself so ginned up on the work I’ve accomplished that I go until about nine the
night after Insomnia’s visit. I don’t need a nap because I feel somehow
energized from not having wasted time trying to sleep when there was no way my
little trickster friend was going to let me. All in all when I can work,
Insomnia and I get along all right. I’m glad she doesn’t feel it necessary to
pay a visit every night but I do hope
this trend we’ve created continues, because I’d really hate to have this surprisingly
productive relationship come to an end. I think it’s “working” for both of us!
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I love writing at night, although I usually stay up late to do it rather than getting up when I've had a visit from Insomnia (she's a busy woman).
ReplyDeleteThere is something about the quiet, about the stillness, that allows ideas to flow. I too don't mind so much feeling like a zombie the next day when I've had a productive night.
A-Z @ Elizabeth Twist
I don't believe I've ever had a bout with insomnia (knock on wood), but my wife struggles with it constantly (which means I do too). :)
ReplyDeletei know what you mean.. sometimes something that is considered a negative can actually be a plus... depends on how you view it. nice post.
ReplyDeleteYep. And I really like finding those positives!
DeleteYour very personal relationship with insomnia held me speelbound. How clever of you to use the time writing instead of lying inert with your mind buzzing. I never do that. I lie with my eyes closed tightly, willing my thoughts away--thoughts that take me to tasks left undone, which I'll never accomplish the next day.
ReplyDeleteI've learned the hard way Francene! I used to do that too. Not anymore!
DeleteI have a very specific window I need to fall asleep in. If I miss it then I'll almost be guaranteed to be wide awake until 4 am.
ReplyDeleteI don't think there's ever been a time I haven't been tired between 5 am and 7 am--which stinks since those are the hours my husband tends to wake up during.